seems as though i'm back to the drawing board yet again. my paris plans are in the process of falling through. the airline rates are simply too damn high, so i'm gonna have to wait. heather will be disappointed, as will patty, but looks as though dinan isn't even going home for new year for the same reasons as i. oh well.

i quit my hotline job, even though my arm has felt better than it has in years. no i'm sensing that pain in the left that i wasnt feeling due to the worser pain in the right. still, 11-12 intakes per night at 2 hours each is way to much for anyone, Repetitive strain or not.

so i've been antsy. need to fill the space. need to take more action around california residency and stop whining about other people's shit..it will always be there shit..ALWAYS..

hopefully, i'll be in nyc for larry's birthday, and i can find another part-time job, volunteer or otherwise to keep me out of my at-times scary head that tends to work way overtime.